If this is the last time I sing, last time I spit verse or get to look at the sunshine.....(deep breath.....sigh) I know I am done. I lived this life to the best of my ability. No one could ever say I never LIVED. I have and continue to fearlessly conquer this thing called life. I love and live knowingly...willing to accept all possibilities. I know that this is not and will not be forever.

I, always prepared for the inevitable, will never regret what life has given me. I have learned so much and lived such a full life that if he calls me tomorrow I would come running. I grind and I love like it could all be over soon; like it could all vanish in a second. God given drive...That is coming from a place deeper than you or I. If you could comprehend it you would probably try and live your life the same as I. Yet so few have the capacity to deal with it.

I, I am that she that has the world on lean; and so the axis still spins. Mother nature and the essence of fertility.

And if I had to say, what my last words would be...I would bless God and tell true love to hold a place for me. No matter how far apart we are. Our hearts and souls are eternally linked now. I would thank him for every opportunity, and release life with a smiling face and eased soul.

Have you ever thought of viewing life through this light? A vertical perspective...can you see it for what it is? I will give you a moment to think on it.......Now....Your reply please...

Love Verse/Poerty

When confusion consumes what determines the outcome? Is it the heart or head? What brings clarity? How do I rid myself of the clouds and the blurred vision? I need the answers quick....he awaits my decision.

I know what feels right, but is it better for the future? Damn it, I, stuck now, confronted with thoughts and resolutions that derive from common sense, feelings and logistics. How plain does truth get? I mean, I knew what it was and what it could have been...and if you didn't you would have never given me...you. So, torn now between present and fate. Where does you heart lay? How much are you willing to put at stake?

As for I...nothing. No man, no woman, no earthly possession could make you be uncertain. You are the derivation of my certainty...No doubt in you. No doubt in we. I never know how the words are perceived until I tap the keys. I write continuously...stop...re-read. My preparation for your clarity. I see you. I hear you.. Peace overtakes you... I touch grace, and we grazed the side of your cheek and you involuntarily close your eyes...

No longer you fight. Surrender to we. I now done with the ride...can we partake? Are you ready to be...extraordinary. Love me...

I just want to be yours. And forever is questionable, but this heart is undeniable. And true love immeasurable.

Questions

My soul and mind are free, but my heart is with you. I love living and loving you. And of all the times I think about the situation I find no resolution. No reason for not coping.

Why is this so hard?

Did I really loose myself in you?

Why?

How can I get me back?

I want me back with you...My soul illuminates in your presence. You radiate me...I love you.

Will you ever?

Give me reasons for suggestions of marriage in future tense?

Was it false hopes to see what you were up against?

I never asked for you...never sought or even wanted us. It just happened. And now I miss it....

Was it miscommunication that kept the distance?

I think we still longed for one another...

Was it fear of truth that we never ignored? Or did we?

To many questions with so few answers. My fate lies in your light. My heart seeks the whispers of your soul. It kills me to hear it calling me, but it is muffled by her...it is drowned out by the thoughts of progression in misery...She will never be me. You still long for it every time our eyes meet. And you always will....We are incomplete.