It's not easy

So hard

Taking that first step

Into light

I have been blinded by

Colorless days and nights

Just black

No white

Limited sight 

So hard to see

Now I can breath

Air 

In my dust filled lungs

I have hope of smelling again

Hope of color filled vision again

Because it has not been easy

Denying me

Choosing you 

Blind leading the blind

To darkness

I looked to you 

To lead me

You failed me

You failed we

The family we dreamed of

The love I fought hard for

You didn't show up

It's not easy to love alone

So

From now on

I choose me

The light 

The color of love

Now in sight 

No more loving alone

Because 

It's not easy...