I Want To Empty It...

I am going through the motions because everyday feels like the day something great is going to happen.  I am living everyday with the same passion and drive I had for the day before.  I love knowing that I get one more chance to make this blog more interesting, to add more chapters to my novel, work in progress, to add more depth to my life, to add more color to my story. 

My mental journal is full so I try to empty it every now and then.  Either on this blog or on the pages of the lines that contribute to my life story.  And it doesn't matter if it is in verse, stanzas or phrases and paragraphs; it's all the same. 

So
I want to empty it today
Clear my head
I need new brain space
New open place
For it to form
I want to bless this page with text that creates
And contributes to
My memory

I want to free myself of past relations
Free my mind of hesistation
To allow greatness unfold
I want to free myself from the strong hold of perfection
Not to escape it though
As a Virgo I am destined

I want to make the time here infinitive
I want to add color here through experience
Experimenting with opposition
Learning from doing what I shouldn't
Provides me with more to write

I tell all as I let him in
I wrote my love letter to passion
And he fell through the crack
Broke down the wall from the outside in
He is so strong
So much courage he holds
And I am more in love

As the days turn
I learn
I crave nights of thoughts
Days of hugs
And afternoon love
He gives me
All that I can not write
All the emotion I tell not
I keep secrets now that he is here
He holds my truth
And he holds it well
Right in arch of his back
The touch of his hand
The smiles not fought back
The heart left hurt
But I mend that
In the way the man speaks my name
He holds no shame in knowing
He knows all
In all that the man is
He holds me down

There is no amount of fame
Nor money the same
Can measure up

He is truth
He is my secret to
Life
And I want to empty it
May it touch you