The Dissapointment

No one is better than God...You are not even close. The idea is to stive for excellence, not promote oppression and ignorance.

If the only way some feel better is if others feel worse, reconsider your purpose...We can not live life in fear of someone being better than us. You are you, and you are capable of only doing and succeeding in the things that you can do. If you have to make some people feel inferior to you than you are insecure and you need to find happiness in you.

I love my people... but often times we can easily place blame for past oppression to anglo-saxtons, but we excuse self inflicted oppression with the explanation that we are just being black. Doesn't make sense to you. It doesn't make sense to me either.

I am all for self confidence and love...But when you start to compromise morals at the expense of some one else's feelings...that says alot about you character and individual moral.

Why?

Not so sure, but I am dissappointed in those who make you feel worse to feel better. Go to church. Search within' self to find the answer, because you are NOT happy. Making yourself believe you are better just because your shoes cost more than his...

That is a negative.

Style has no cost; but immorality and discriminatory behavior does. Get it together; we are all of the same blood...that, blood, has no separate colors. And what's worse is that some of us try so hard to be another, or the other (race), that we don't even recognize our significance. We misinterpret our purpose and live life searching....not enjoying it.

Think about this.....

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Up and Coming Author Prepares for the Release of Second Book of Poetry: Diary In Reverse
Houston, TX -- June 22, 2009 -- “Diary In Reverse is just a poetry collage of real life and love experiences.” With that as the basis, Audreyanna Garrett is set to release her second book of poetry. Diary In Reverse captures the emotion and trials of relationships.

A different perspective to her critically acclaimed 2006 release, Poetically Speaking, Diary In Reverse began as simple journal entries, a way to vent and document challenging life experiences and relational feelings. “I began to write poems and entries about them and then it evolved into to a collage, which I later restructured in to a reversed version of my diary…” says Garrett, “… the irony and inconsistency of some of the sections in the collage give it dynamic. It makes it more realistic and relatable to me. I wanted everyone to be able to relate to the poems.”

The book is scheduled to be released and available for purchase via web on www.lulu.com/diaryinreverse on June 25th 2009. Samples of Garret’s work can be viewed on her blogs at www.soulpoetspeaks.blogspot.com and www.theverticalperspective.blogspot.com. Information for the official book signing and release party will be posted on these sites. “… Diary In Reverse is just a poetry collage of real life and love experiences… it is love made plain…”
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Contact: audreyannagarrett@yahoo.com

Newness...

There is this thing called newness...sometimes we bask in it; other times we run from it. I need to exprience this, this fresh new way of thinking, his optimism, the fear of the unexpected but the excitement of the possibilities!

I am happy. I love knowing that he still gazes at me, when I smile. I stare at him from miles and he feels me. Wonder if he wants me to? Wonder if he already knows, and sees a future of two? I just sit back and enjoy the view. He will jump on the ride eventually. But in this time I will give him desire....make him want more. So he admires my anatomy, the words I speak and the abkility to let nature take its course...He delights in me, but fears encounters and so do I, but I am not scared to try and make him happy.

So what do you say? Embrace the new.

ONE LOVE

Do you not love the feeling you get when you are peace with everything, life, career, goals, etc? I do! I am feeling it now...Constant smiles and not a piece of hate or anger involved. No hidden feelings, don't need the facade...In love with my drive, determination and I am reaping the benefits. Sometimes it takes you a little while to see the success in it, but you will.

Diary in Reverse is in the last stages of Editing!! It is almost there.... Expected Launch in July or August....But the book will be available at the conclusion of the Month. I am ecstatic, proud of my accomplishments; and I am maximizing all the possibilities. Try it.

Life is good, and GOD is great.

Enjoy it; delight in him...

One Love

The Next Block....

As then it came to me...It is really not what I expected. Nothing like what I deserve. He fell short, and I allowed it to be done. What next? Nothing major...just packing up. Moving on to higher heights or other longitudes and latitudes...what are your coordinates? Will you direct me to you? Or will I have to make believe, here on this corner; imagining that it is when it is not? I can not imagine living with the hope of the not EVER....would you? Could you allow yourself to partake in something that is worse than a broken record? I guess if you implement love as a factor you could. But why want to? There is so much passion in the NEW. So much to gain and live through. I believe it is the FRESHNESS of it all. Just like new sheets, new apartments, new clothes, etc...we live in that moment. Savor every memory and character components. Never wanting to loose it. So DON'T. Start packing...I did. Move on. No fear. To the next block...Welcome home, to here....For NOW.

Contagious....

You are contagious...and every time I hear your name I catch it. This was suppose to be a poem but the words just fell into the space; granted, for me to develop this post. Bottom line....I can not help it. I want to never be rid of you...want no medicine to cure this disease, of love. It's so impure, that is why I am sick and I can't rid myself of it....well I wanted the poetry so lets rearrange the lines a bit:

Like the swine flu
Your catchy
Powerful
Unhealthy

You wear out my immune system
Like pneumonia
I can't fight you
Don't want to
Need you to find the cure
The antidote
I am sure you have it
Just don't want me to nab it

You like this
You love the power
Continuous strokes of your male ego
And I
Can't argue
It's huge
If I could rid myself of you
I am not sure I would

Love is an addiction...and whenever it's near I can not wait to embrace it...it's contagious. You know it. You feel it, with each stare, each embrace, each day you get to wake up to that person it reignites...I hope you are aware of it. Allow it to invade you. You can not die from it, unless you allow it to blind you. And I am not condoning violence. That isn't love; it is hate at a great cost.

All I ask is that you face truth...and all though his/her truth may not be yours presently, love will prevail eventually.

His love....

What's left for me to do? As I stroke the keys tears fall through the spaces...I have never adored anyone more than he. I need to release myself to be at peace. I need him to free the pain, the anticipation, the fear of rejection. I need him to accept me. Love me willingly, unconditionally...Is it possible? The question is left unanswered...but if answered does that mean there is no room for me? I hope not. The thought is scary, so scary that the thought of it sparks tears that fall silently. And there is NOTHING that can cure me. But his love...

As Long As My Heart Beats....

As long as my heart beats
I get a chance to
Make love with you tangible
I can't deny feelings felt
And you can't deny truth to this depth
Love so pure you think twice
Thirds and forths
To stubborn to give in
Because.....
You feel like you lack
You keep me away
Life not where you want it to be
You stray
To much respect from this heart
To much to loose if you fuck up
So you let it be
I
Always in your memory
The daydreams
And night screams
That have you longing for me at all hours
And when you call
I don't answer
Confused

You love not
I love much
In love we are not
But it lingers amoungst
You ignore it
I look like a fool for facing feelings
Left
To feel this alone
You want not
So I move on
Right
Then you call
For my presence you yearn
But you wished for it
And now I am done
Blocked out
You thought it was right
Just like my actions speak loud
Yours fight
Fight naturally your heart's desire
Why not let me
Help make you the man you want to be
How much longer will it be
How much more will you entertain the now
Cause we are greater than
We are substatial
We conquer everything
And when we encounter one another
Nothing can take away from
The way our eyes smile
And our hearts speak to one another
No man has ever given me butterflies
At least not everytime
Uncontrollable nervousness overtakes
And I vulnerable and weak
You, my rock
I need to keep
Steady knees
Hide it all through my smile
Love spoke to you miles
Away
As long as my heart beats...
You are every breath I take
The mate for my soul
The very reason I take
Chances
So make me honest
Cause honestly for me
It's true love or mate less

If this is the last time I sing, last time I spit verse or get to look at the sunshine.....(deep breath.....sigh) I know I am done. I lived this life to the best of my ability. No one could ever say I never LIVED. I have and continue to fearlessly conquer this thing called life. I love and live knowingly...willing to accept all possibilities. I know that this is not and will not be forever.

I, always prepared for the inevitable, will never regret what life has given me. I have learned so much and lived such a full life that if he calls me tomorrow I would come running. I grind and I love like it could all be over soon; like it could all vanish in a second. God given drive...That is coming from a place deeper than you or I. If you could comprehend it you would probably try and live your life the same as I. Yet so few have the capacity to deal with it.

I, I am that she that has the world on lean; and so the axis still spins. Mother nature and the essence of fertility.

And if I had to say, what my last words would be...I would bless God and tell true love to hold a place for me. No matter how far apart we are. Our hearts and souls are eternally linked now. I would thank him for every opportunity, and release life with a smiling face and eased soul.

Have you ever thought of viewing life through this light? A vertical perspective...can you see it for what it is? I will give you a moment to think on it.......Now....Your reply please...