Contagious....

You are contagious...and every time I hear your name I catch it. This was suppose to be a poem but the words just fell into the space; granted, for me to develop this post. Bottom line....I can not help it. I want to never be rid of you...want no medicine to cure this disease, of love. It's so impure, that is why I am sick and I can't rid myself of it....well I wanted the poetry so lets rearrange the lines a bit:

Like the swine flu
Your catchy
Powerful
Unhealthy

You wear out my immune system
Like pneumonia
I can't fight you
Don't want to
Need you to find the cure
The antidote
I am sure you have it
Just don't want me to nab it

You like this
You love the power
Continuous strokes of your male ego
And I
Can't argue
It's huge
If I could rid myself of you
I am not sure I would

Love is an addiction...and whenever it's near I can not wait to embrace it...it's contagious. You know it. You feel it, with each stare, each embrace, each day you get to wake up to that person it reignites...I hope you are aware of it. Allow it to invade you. You can not die from it, unless you allow it to blind you. And I am not condoning violence. That isn't love; it is hate at a great cost.

All I ask is that you face truth...and all though his/her truth may not be yours presently, love will prevail eventually.

His love....

What's left for me to do? As I stroke the keys tears fall through the spaces...I have never adored anyone more than he. I need to release myself to be at peace. I need him to free the pain, the anticipation, the fear of rejection. I need him to accept me. Love me willingly, unconditionally...Is it possible? The question is left unanswered...but if answered does that mean there is no room for me? I hope not. The thought is scary, so scary that the thought of it sparks tears that fall silently. And there is NOTHING that can cure me. But his love...

As Long As My Heart Beats....

As long as my heart beats
I get a chance to
Make love with you tangible
I can't deny feelings felt
And you can't deny truth to this depth
Love so pure you think twice
Thirds and forths
To stubborn to give in
Because.....
You feel like you lack
You keep me away
Life not where you want it to be
You stray
To much respect from this heart
To much to loose if you fuck up
So you let it be
I
Always in your memory
The daydreams
And night screams
That have you longing for me at all hours
And when you call
I don't answer
Confused

You love not
I love much
In love we are not
But it lingers amoungst
You ignore it
I look like a fool for facing feelings
Left
To feel this alone
You want not
So I move on
Right
Then you call
For my presence you yearn
But you wished for it
And now I am done
Blocked out
You thought it was right
Just like my actions speak loud
Yours fight
Fight naturally your heart's desire
Why not let me
Help make you the man you want to be
How much longer will it be
How much more will you entertain the now
Cause we are greater than
We are substatial
We conquer everything
And when we encounter one another
Nothing can take away from
The way our eyes smile
And our hearts speak to one another
No man has ever given me butterflies
At least not everytime
Uncontrollable nervousness overtakes
And I vulnerable and weak
You, my rock
I need to keep
Steady knees
Hide it all through my smile
Love spoke to you miles
Away
As long as my heart beats...
You are every breath I take
The mate for my soul
The very reason I take
Chances
So make me honest
Cause honestly for me
It's true love or mate less